Instant change

Today I got double vision
And then it disappeared after
I gave away all my coins

Today I had a headache and crowding
Teeth and they eased after
I gave away all my coins

Today, I bought three hot chocs
From three different vendors –
Ate an apple with each.

I avoided potatoes and tomatoes and Tried to delete some habitual thoughts and guilt

Today was not the best day nor the worst day but it could have been better but then I forget

The double vision that came and went,
The headache and teeth,

If these had stayed, who could I be?
No capacity to look out and look in, in Comfort

Thanks to ‘Give your spare change to a good cause’ for the great deal.

Today was as all days, the best day, the Only way on, wherein everything that ever was or is, will be.

Patience, patient.

If myself were distilled into

A test tube and held up to the

Light now, it would be two feet,

A bit of br ain between the ey es

And the ache where the lungs meat.

 

The rest is being kept

In another cabinet,

Access has been barred

And bureaucracy is quick

To thicken the dust on this key

 

There is the hope of everything

Being in that jar, housing

The organs I once owned.

The promise of wholeness, of

Complete myself, stowed away.

 

I’ll pay whatever it takes, I’ll

Take whatever works and spit out

Whatever doesn’t and if nothing does

I’ll smash the glass and let my guts

Mingle with the mud, set free forever.